this is the beginning of something big. i know that because i know what it feels like to be a part of something that is going no where. i know because we were made to know these sorts of things we just rarely get a chance to realize that gift because we are too often tangled in the wiles of our own mediocrity and self centeredness. i for one am tired of only thinking about myself. i am really starting to bore me. i used to be so fascinated by my own seemingly endless neuroses and the fascinating contours of my many quirks. but who cares? i know no one else really does so maybe it is a kind of lucid sanity that i am only now realizing, agreeing with everyone else on planet earth that my intricacies are not that interesting. not to say that God does not care about those intricacies. i actually think he does, but when we are talking about me and God in the same sentence the questions of capacity is screaming to be addressed.
God can care about every hair on my head because he is infinitely capable. he delights to see the micro redemptions going on in me everyday. while at the same time God is not distracted by that, forgetting to care about the lost, or my kids, or rwanda or forgetting to have the sun come up one morning. i, on the other hand, being quite limited in my capacity, tend to be very distracted by my own whining heart. if i am wronged i can spend hours thinking about it, but in the end all that has really happened is i have forgotten my purpose (or perhaps never realized it in the first place).
this is the start of something big because this is big. it is bigger than the individuals who comprise it. they call that synergy. i call it liberation. how long will we live under the tyranny of our own self serving lifestyles. i am very interested in something that will lead my heart and the hearts of our community into the burning center of the heart of God. a place where like Daniel discovered you are not burned up or burned out but actually see God. that is the point i guess. we want to see God. really, we do. but what is so big about the new wine skin is that we want others to see him too, maybe even first.
this is the start of something big because we were made for big. we have to realize that to love the poor and to love the lost and really to love anyone at all ahead of ourselves is an invitation into the character of God. it is an invitation into wholeness. freud was wrong, it is not about your mother or your father (well at least not the one with the little “f”) it is not about what is wrong with you and it is not about analysis. it is about saying yes to the invitation to follow. it is a simple reality that becomes more and more obscured by spiritual aging. we do not mature in Christ because we do not follow him. we only age, stepping everyday closer to spiritual death. but when we follow, we grow, we mature we step away from the lure of selfish gain and are wooed to follow the love that gives itself for its enemy. we are drawn into the courts of royal servanthood in all its grit and splendor. we really don’t need psycho analysis we need psycho liberation and that comes in the shadow of the master.
when i follow him he leads me to a place of service, concern and even sacrifice for others. really anyone will do. but it is especially powerful when it is the poor who become the object of our focus because they are in the end the object of God’s focus and the fulcrum of his liberating initiative in the world. the margins are calling us because Jesus is already there. there are two worlds, the world inside our heads where we are the center even the creator, the diviner of reality. and then there is the everything else world where we are only a part, a beloved and significant part but just a player. in this world outside our heads God is the center, the creator the definition of all things. it is the bigger world. this is the start of something big because it is an invitation to follow Jesus into that big world where he is the Lord and king.
this is the start of something big because people do not usually cooperate on things. not really, not if there is nothing primary in it for them. and yet here we are open to that exact proposition. want to become of part of something that is not about you? we all say yes. and that is big. bigger than you know. it is the triumph of the cross in you, in us. it is the exertion of the power of God to extract us from the current of our culture and to make us into something new. it is big because it is God who is instigating our hearts to act, to join to cooperate. this is big because we already said yes. we are already something special. uncommon commitment is what i am asking for, because in the end it is worship that we are doing. because this is big. but he is bigger.
